When God is Silent
Your in a relationship and despite your best intentions to be Holy the whole time until marriage. You slip up and you fall...your flesh wins. You repent, cry, feel grieved...like you just sinned in the worst way, against your body! You no longer feel that you are presentable to God. You talk to God, scared that He is mad because you can't hear Him. There is silence in the spirit realm, your spirit is still and so quiet you hear your pulse. What do you do? Your too embarrassed to talk to anyone else and there really is no one that you trust NOT to JUDGE you because you fell....what do you do? You still want to be with the person but understand that you have to set boundaries...problem is once you've crossed over, it's hard to go back. On top of that, you may not exactly want to go back.
The challenges of being single in ministry is plentiful, however, fleshly desires, I think, tops the list. I hear so many saying that it's okay to "test" the waters before marriage. Then others say it isn't okay ever. I believe the word tells us in so many words that s*x is for the marriage bed and that we belong to God until such a time. You know the word, it's in you...you are a Holy Ghost filled, Fire Baptized man or woman of God and you have held yourself, but you fell! What do you do? Are you no longer allowed to Preach? Teach? Pray? Should you be condemned because of your momentary lapse of judgement?
You have no one to talk to and so you resort to prayer because your DESIRE is to be Holy because God is Holy. You need His help, you pray after the fall........and NOTHING....it's silent for days. Your mouth is glued shut, your spirit is whispering and the atmosphere in your prayer closet is silent...the voice, face nor hand of God is anywhere to be found. What do you do?
These are the questions that no one in ministry wants to teach or preach on. There are no seminars, conferences, etc. Juanita Bynum helped so many, including myself, with No More Sheets...the book is way more awesome that the dvd! But tell me, what other major platform is trying to help people to live right? Those private backroom conversations are temporary fixes.
Trust me, I have eaten, prayed, slept, showered, fasted, consecrated, studied, begged and cried my way through....it doesn't get easier....it just gets less frequent!
I want to get some feed back on this one because, it's such a topic that no one wants to touch because of all the skeletons they have in their closets! Let's stop hiding and help one another make it!
If you have questions, comments, suggestions, etc. and do not want to post them here, you can email me ---> lov1978@yahoo.com
The challenges of being single in ministry is plentiful, however, fleshly desires, I think, tops the list. I hear so many saying that it's okay to "test" the waters before marriage. Then others say it isn't okay ever. I believe the word tells us in so many words that s*x is for the marriage bed and that we belong to God until such a time. You know the word, it's in you...you are a Holy Ghost filled, Fire Baptized man or woman of God and you have held yourself, but you fell! What do you do? Are you no longer allowed to Preach? Teach? Pray? Should you be condemned because of your momentary lapse of judgement?
You have no one to talk to and so you resort to prayer because your DESIRE is to be Holy because God is Holy. You need His help, you pray after the fall........and NOTHING....it's silent for days. Your mouth is glued shut, your spirit is whispering and the atmosphere in your prayer closet is silent...the voice, face nor hand of God is anywhere to be found. What do you do?
These are the questions that no one in ministry wants to teach or preach on. There are no seminars, conferences, etc. Juanita Bynum helped so many, including myself, with No More Sheets...the book is way more awesome that the dvd! But tell me, what other major platform is trying to help people to live right? Those private backroom conversations are temporary fixes.
Trust me, I have eaten, prayed, slept, showered, fasted, consecrated, studied, begged and cried my way through....it doesn't get easier....it just gets less frequent!
I want to get some feed back on this one because, it's such a topic that no one wants to touch because of all the skeletons they have in their closets! Let's stop hiding and help one another make it!
If you have questions, comments, suggestions, etc. and do not want to post them here, you can email me ---> lov1978@yahoo.com
Thanks for this blog Shaquanda and you are so right that this subject called s*x before marriage is hardly touched .... although alot of us are doing a lot of touching somewhere behind closed doors.
I have been there and done that and got the T shirt to prove it. There was this wonderful book and workbook called 's*x Traps' by Dr. Wanda Davis Turner that helped me see the traps that I layed for myself that kept me caught up in the sheets.
After reading the book and working throught the pages in the workbook, I was able to identify some things in myself ( like lonliness, low self worth, and need for a father (lack of father figure in my life) that made me prey for predators.