I cried again today, and it was one of those cries that I couldn't hold, the cries that you try to hold but can't because it was a cry of sick and tired. A cry of feeling fed up and done. So far this year I can count how many times I have cried on my fingers, which is a good thing, because really honestly I am trying to keep it like that. I know I got so far to go and I ask God everyday, why me? Something I didn't want to do going into year 2011. Asking WHY! And even though, I hustled to get where I wanted to be at the end of 2010, it feels like I'm starting right where I left off. In the same situation, surrounded by negative individuals who has no ounce of motivation within them selves at all. And God know's I want out of it, I know because I told him. I never say this, but he sure does got some explaining to do. Still I say he will never put to much on me that I can't bare. On the 18th of Jan. I will hit a age older and I feel like I have not made no progress. And with all the "options" I supposedly should have, I can't make them. People say these are the prime years of my life. I should be out having fun, and partying tell the break of dawn. Well, yes, I do want to have fun, but my definition of having fun is, owning my own business, making executive decisions. Focusing on my focus. But it's so hard to do when I have obstacles in the way. Sometimes, I wonder if I am asking for too much.. I mean should I ask for smaller then make my way up? If a JOB is so big then please with all due respect tell me what is smaller. Stay positive, stay positive, block out the negative, BE OPTIMISTIC! Something just got to give, and I've said it before and will say it again, when will I find happiness, not only with my life, but to the people around me, so that maybe some of my luck can rub off on them, and then we all can see eye to eye. When it rains it pours, but yet I'm still going to have my parade and no one will rain on it. Be blessed, I'm still waiting on mine. Peace
I hope things will turn out well for you and that you get what you are seeking in this New Year. I also want to wish you a very Happy Birthday in advance!
Tuesday, January 11th 2011 at 10:57PM
Jen Fad
Thank you Jen.
Wednesday, January 12th 2011 at 3:19AM
Tee E
Tee there is nothing wrong with a good cry. Tears are your way of expressing out sadness, uncertainity, negativeness and tears express out positive senses that all will be well. When the tears have faded you'll find God will grant you more strength than you had before your cried. Be patient in things of God if there is why want answered.. God will answer it when it his time for you. Listen after tears for his voice. Be blessed this year, and why not you? You are God's dearest.
Tuesday, January 18th 2011 at 11:02AM
MIISRAEL Bride
