CHANGING POISON INTO MEDICINE...WHEN I ASKED THAT THE PERSON GIVING ME MY CT SCAN TO TELL ME IN LAY TERMS WHAT (926 hits)
MY CANCER DOCTOR'S ORDER WAS FOR...HERE IS WHAT I WAS TOLD...THE CT SCAN WAS FOR LOCATING NONCELLS OF LUNG CANCER...AND I WILL KNOW WHAT THE RADIOLOGIST FOUND ON WEDNSDAY WHEN I SEE MY CANCER DOCTOR IF NO MORE CHEMO AT ALL IS NEEDED...BUT YOU ARE NOT DEEMED AS A CANCER SURVIVER UNTIL AFTER FIVE YEARS SINCE YOUR LAST TREATMENT...MY LAST CHEMO WAS IN OCT. (S-M-I-L-E)
good luck... Im chanting and praying for you... I have to admit... I don't think I could tolerate Chemo... Poison is so correct when you talk about this stuff....
I'd just request for my Marijuana, Ambien and some Anti-Depressant and just wait on the Angel of Death... BUT that's my feelings... Im certain (as yours probably did) my Family will give orders on this call.
When my grandfather was ill and his doctor suggested chemo my grandfather said NO... I was the first to plead with him; I wasn't ready to let him go. BUT he told me, Cymp... when it's time to go... It's time to go... He had a blessed life, all of his children was still alive and it was God's plan .... and man can't interfer with Gods plan... it's ordered!
I will say this.... I know that we (our BIA clan) have a closeness.... and I like this about the group... In a lot of ways... You and I have similar character qualities... Pride is one that we women hold on to ....
I think Madyun is a good teacher... YES, he is "a man" ... A Muslim Man... and with this comes a degree of pride, action, .... you know...
We have had an association of 3 years plus and we basically know each others style of writing to detect when we are being pushed... I just think that somewhere during the chaos we all got caught with our defenses up... I know I did...
Your friend Telleraas doesn't really respond to my comments on his blog... BUT I'm ok.. Apparently, we have different views... So I can deal with it... just keep it moving... It's ok to NOT share anyones views or opinions...
I invited Maydun to comment on David's Blogs.. Not to set him up, or throw him infront of our firing squad, but to bring him into our discussions .... Now, I have to make my apologies to him and to you... We all are here to gain knowledge... and the last thing I want to see is "our bia family" uncomfortable... I am sorry for Maydun's comments to you... and I have to apologize to him for inviting him and not giving him a heads up on how "difficult" our little group can be... Because you know we are like Bumble Bees... One screams... we all follow... and there goes all of my stingers... all over the place...
I remember how your instinct about David was right, and now David is a good friend. I don't dislike Madyun, but the "damaged goods" comment got to me more than anything he had said previously.
Being called a slithering snake is not a button he can push. But when it comes to my dear sister Irma, yes that is a button he can push.
Well yes, I can push buttons too and maybe I shouldn't. But I wanted to find out something and now that I have I'll let it go.
You know Irma, I will always be praying for you. For me prayer is a channeling of love, and love is the most powerful force I know.
Tuesday, May 7th 2013 at 5:15PM
Steve Williams
Steve yes... personalities are sumn aren't they... and you guys know I just love people with a wide spectrum of information... I love learning new things... if I live to be a 105 years old.. I would pray to maintain my saneness and just read and travel....
Irma... I would love to work in a Pharmacy... BUT I also know my limitations... That's why I wouldn't study Pharmacy and my Anatomy Instructor kept pushing me to enter the program.. Noooo not me... i'd be trying to figure out... how does this pain med feels/or this anxiety tablet.... Nope she can't do it...
I also admire strong men whom aren't too affraid to back down... and stand firm in their beliefs ... religion, living life, teachings... And we know that Muslim Men are very well disciplined...
I'm not apologizing for yours or his thoughts...
only reactions and actions ... because I would hate to have any of my friends feelings hurt....
And Steve... you are a dear friend.. and there is just somethings that I can't tell you or teach you... You have to gain this knowledge for yourself... Dealing with Black African Amerian Men you have to realize that society has placed longterm injuries to the black families and there are just some men whom are just proud, whom has the highest value on their self worth... and when a man challenges his ManHood and especially speaks over the Black Woman... most times you are going to get caught up in the riff.... Its just men in general but black men specifically... I'm pretty good with people and finding their good qualities... after all look at my friends here... I miss Clark ... He was my elder male confidant... There's just something about mature black men that I cling onto... I guess its because of my grandfather....
And plus .... YOU know she doesn't do married men...
A.B. is happily married and he speaks highly of his wife... SO, for me... that's a good thing... and plus he thinks im intelligent... now you know he's alright with me... cause he figured out early ....
We can all agree to disagree... and I am not taking sides...
love isn't that the greatest thing....
Tuesday, May 7th 2013 at 5:39PM
Cynthia Merrill Artis
Cynthia,
Yes I see that about men and it's probably why I get along better with women, in general. David and I get along very well now, real cyber friends, but Robert doesn't like it so now he has flipped and is coming after me. I don't mind, but it's come to the point where I just don't feel like talking to him anymore. No animosity, just weariness.
On the one hand I feel somewhat guilty about provoking Madyun, but on the other hand I now understand him better. It wasn't prompted by any animosity either. But as you pointed out, when it comes to you, Irma and Miisrael, those brotherly feelings come out.
I shall pray for Irma. Already, I am doing so.
Wednesday, May 8th 2013 at 1:03AM
MIISRAEL Bride
Okay I was wondering how it went, so next wednesday then. Glad you got to enjoy your garden today.
Thursday, May 9th 2013 at 4:39AM
Steve Williams
@Irma... Madyun sends his best wishes and his sincerest prayers...
I wish you guys would have a meeting of the minds....
@Steve.... Thats one of the things I like about you.... in this cyber forum... I know you are gonna come to my defense...
Listen... Everyone knows that I am highly opinionated.... outspoken... a very proud...
BUT also, I do not give out my respect to anyone without just due....
I stated on the other blog... Madyun challenged me.... Robert Powell Robert did the same... Once the misunderstandings and differences resolved... and we acknowledged that we were in cyber harmony... the feuds ended....
However, Robert still will challenge dRArtis... but I understand and I don't really take it too much to heart... and of course if he hurts my feelings I tell him.... BUT I luv the ole man just the same... I relish that time of confusion... It helped me understand him alot better.. I don't get into too much hostility with him... I allow him to tell me his displeasures with me and I do the same for him... and most times we agree to disagree... especially with my Latin Jesus and Pagan Christianity and slaver thoughts... but hey... it's ok... Robert does not Make Me, Define Me, or can Save Me and my Soul....
just As Madyun and I agreed to disagree and have communicated away from the forum to explain our differences and He and I Agreed that we enjoy each others dialogue...teachings... Opinions... and we have a mutual respect.... Umm no she's not Muslim.... No Im not thinking about it.... BUT IF IN FACT his teachings encompasses my beliefs... I accept and embrace it... I'm trying to make it to my family where ever they are whom have surpassed this life... I chant.... I pray.... I can uplift my hands.... whatever I need to do... to make it to my Heavenly Father.... My Higher Power and that ole Mann whom has blessed and enriched my life sooooo much more than anyone in this life or aftermy life .... Has ever impacted my life so profoundly... I wanna see that ole man... I wanna be with him ...
so .... with this being said.... Make amends.... and lets move on....
I don't want Irma, Steve nor Madyun feeling like outcasts nor disrespected.... I stand with all of you.... I'm not going to take sides....
BUT again... My Lady... she gets my luv more fellas... sorry she's of woman...
Madyun... YOU have gained a respect that I do not offer lightly....
Steve... YOU have a unique friendship with me... Shoes anyone?
David... I just can't help but luv you my brother...
Siebra/Miisrael/Jen/Kem/GregB/RegC/Truth/Robert.... you know there aint nuttin but love
Harry ... there's hope... really it is Harry... but we scientists ain't found that cure... but Im pressing and praying....
I just want BIA unity... or I ain't playin wit none of yall no more.... Humph!
Thanks Cynthia. Love and unity and peace make the world a better place for us all. I ain't mad at A.B. Madyun. And Robert can call me viralDNA 'till he turns blue in the face if he wants. I know that I haven't changed in a negative way but a positive one.
Thursday, May 9th 2013 at 4:10PM
Steve Williams
Smoochesssss!! And I wouldn't have it any other way!!! Never Change... except in a Positive... Glorifying! and Loving Way...
so much is just going on in the world... My Dad just celebrated 80 Birth Years!!! A Blessing!! And he's as mean as a Snake... YET, now God has placed his remaining years with me now to nurture and provide... Ain't that sumn... Now my care giver is now my care receiver...
Although he missed out on those growing years for me... I am not going to miss his olding years... BUT I am going to love all of it... Unity and peace...
I may not get to do much outside gardening, but I do know my medicine. 100% organic and just like apples there are different varieties for different tastes. So all you need to do is ask if you want to give it a shot. Improving appetite is one of its well known uses.
Tuesday, May 14th 2013 at 9:11AM
Steve Williams
STEVE, I AM GOING TO HOLD OFF OF THE WEEK FOR NOWLOL!!!...
VISIT TO DOCTOR WENT WELL. I AM NOT GOING BACK ON CHEMO AND HE WANTS ME TO GET ANOTHER CAT SCAN IN 4 MONTHS AND A VISIT BACK TO SEE HIM AFTER ....HE SAID MY CANCER IS STILL DOING NOTHING SO NOT TO WORRY.
HE ORDERED ME TWO MEDS TO HELP MY APPITITE...I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR MYPHARMACY TO DELIVER THEM AS HE HAD CALLED THEM IN AND I HAE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE...BUT I GOT A CALL ONE OF THEM IS NOT IN AND THEY WILL HAVE IT IN BY TOMORROW...THANKS YOU ALL OFR TAKING SUCH GREAT CARE OF ME SPIRITUALLY...LOV AY A-L-L (S-M-I-L-E)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
I NO LONGER HAVE TO HAVE MY OXYGEN TAKE WITH ME AT ALL TIMES, BUT I MOST LIKELY WILL ALWAYS HAVE TO USE OXYGEN ON SOME LEVEL FOR FOR EVER. BUT, HAT A BENEFIT THAT MY LUNG CANCER WAS UNOPERABLE BEFORE THE CHEMO AND RADIATION SO I DID NOT HAVE TO LOOSE ANY OF MY LUNG AT ALL OR MAYBE A WHOLE ONE OF THEM.(SMILE)...
THIS IS THE THIRD TIME "I" HAVE PUT MY LIFE IN THE HANDS OF PRAYER THEN GOT UP OFF BENDED KNEES AND PUT IT IN THE HANDS ME AND MY DOCTORS. (S-M-I-L-E)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
FRO THE FIRST TIME, I AM HAVING TROUBLE EATING...SOME TIME I GET SICK TO MY STOMACH AND I HAVE A HARD TIME TRYING TO SWOLLOW FOOD IN MU MOUTH...I MAY HAVE TO END UP GETTING SOME MARIJUSAMA TO SLOKE, I HAVE GOT TO DOOSMETHING TO TART TOEAT AS I AM ALMOST SKIN AND BNES NOW ANS IT IS WROOYING ME TO NO END...SO I HAVE A LONG LIST OF THINGS TO TELL MY DOCTOR ON WED.I REFUSE TO GO N MY SCALE HERE AR HOME BUT WILL HAVE TO GO ON THEIRS ON WED.(SMILE)
MY SPIRITS ARE HIGH AND I AM OUT SIDE A LOT TODAY AND TOMORROW AS IT HAS COOLED DOWN A WHOLE LOT NOW AND IT IS CHATH UP TIME IN MY PLANTINGS...OH MY GOD, I JUST LOOKED AT MY CLOSK AND IT IS ALMOST 3AM...MUST GET BEFORE MY ALTER FOR MY NIGHT PRAYERS AND INTO BED. GOOD NIGHT. (SMILE)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
DOC, A,B. DON'T WANT TO ME MY MIND HE WANSTS TO RULE MEY MIND AND I HAVE BEEN THER DONE THAT...I AM ONLY ONE IRMA AND HOW MANY MORE IRMAS HAVE HE REMADE ME INTO DAY JUST TODAY?...
DOC GIVE MA AN EXAMPLE OF MEETING OF THE MIND AS I AM SURE IT WILL HELP COMING FROM YOUR. "k". (SMILE)
IN TRUTH DOC, I KNOW SO LITTLE ABOUT A.B. AS A.B. HE TAKJS ABOUT EHAT OTHERES O HAVE DONE SILLL DO THEN HE PUTS PEOPE WOWN WITHOUT ASKING ANY QUESTIONS LIKE WHAT DO YOU DO FOR A LIVING, WHAT ARE YOUR HOBY, WHERE ARE YOU FROM IT IS ALL ABOUT YOU DON'T AGREEWITH MY RELIGION, HELL I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT YOUR RELIGION WHY DO YOU THINK I KEEP ASKING YOU QUESTIONS AND NEVER GET AND ANSWER ON THE QUESTION.EVEN ASKING A QUESTION IS SEEN AS AN ATTACT NOT WHY IT IS AN ATTACK JUST IT IS AN ATTACK...I DEAL IN REASON NOT EMOTIONAL OUT BREAKSTHEY IS WHY I LEFT HIS OTHERE SITE A.B. HAD TOO MUSH NAME CALLLINGS AND NO SUBSTANCE. IT LOOLS LIKE DAVID AND STVE IS TRYING TO GET DAVID'S POST BACK ON TRACK NOW A.B. IS TRYING TO NOW PULL A HARRY TO THROW IT OFF TRACK AGAIN...OH WELL, I JUST STARTED TO JOKE ABOUT IT. (SMILE0
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY, I REALIZE MY BO BO...NOT THIS WED, BUT NEXT WED, THE 15TH IT WILL BE READ AND SENT OVR TO MY DOCTOR,...
THANKS ALL...YOU GUYS CAN SAY YOU ALL HAVE POWERFUL PRAYERS AS THIS IS THE SECOND TIME OF CONQUORING CANCER...MY DOC. SAID I BETTER NO COME BACK AGAIN.LOL!!!
HE IS STILL DUMB FOUNFED BUT IS RELIEVE IT IS TOTALY DIFFERENT AND DIN NOW SPRESD FROM TH ELAST BACH OF CANCER. I KNOW NOT GIVING IN TO IT HELPED A LOT. I AM SURE MY BREATHING WILL NOW BE LABORED OFF AND ON BUT TIS ARIGHT. I HAVE HAD IT BETTER, I HAVE HAD IT WORST. (SMILE)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
THANKS STEVE, I NEED TO BE PROTECTED BY THE DIEST GOD ALSO.(SMILE)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
A.B. AS I SEE IT DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME...HIS PROBLEM IS WITH A.B. IN HIS FALSE ATTEMPTS TO MAKE ME A PART OF HIS SURVIVAL KIT AND A LOT OF PEOPLE BELIEVE PART OF THEIR SURVIVLE KIT IS TO STOP OTHERS FROM BEING THE BEST THEY CAN BE AND TO DO IT THEIR WAY...
ME, MY OBJECT IN LIFE IS TO OVER COME OBSTICLES AND ONE OF MY OBSTICLES WAS TRYING TO GET A.B. TO REALIZE HE CAN'T DO THAT...BUT THEN I BECAME WHAT I WAS TRYING TO GET HIM TO SEE WAS WRONG WHICH MADE ME THE SAME AS A.B. IN I WAS TRYING T OLIVE HIS LIFE FOR HIM...
AND, AS ALWAYS UPON REALIZING "I" WAS IN THE LOWER FOUR WORLDS OF THE NDB 10 WORLDS, I GOT MY SELF OUT OF IT. (SMILE)
REMEMBER NOT TOLONG AGO I DID THE SAME THING WHEN JEN BACK STABBED MIISRAEL AND I LOST IT COMPLETELY?!?...
@DOC, COME ON DOC, YOU WILL ONE DAY AS AN MD HAVE TO DO MEDS.LOL!!!YES I KNOW I AM PUSHING IT. ..
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
DOC, I WILL NEVER HOLD YOU RESPONSBILE FOR A.B.'S OR ANY ONE'S BEHAVOIRS...THAT IS ON THEM NOT YOU. AND THAT ENDS MY LECTURE FOR YOU.LOL!!!(SMILE)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
DOC, "I" GATHER I HAD TO HAVE CHEMO AT THE RIGHT TIME. MY HAIR DID NOT FALL OUT AND I WA NOT SICK A DAY FROM TAKING CHEMO. ONE OF MY NEIGHBORS AND A FRIEND GRO MARIJUANA AND TOLD ME COME TO THEM WHEN I NEEDED SOME. I NEVER HAD TO DO SO.
A.B. IS JUST FINE WITH ME...IT DOES GET TO ME WHEN SOME ONE SAYS I DID NOT SAY OR MEAN WHAT I SAID BECAUSE THEY CAN DO A BETTER JOB WITH LIVING MY LIFE FOR METHAN I CAN...I GREW UP WITH MY MOM TEACHING ME A LIER IS ONE OF THE MOST DANGEROUS PEOPLE ONE CAN INCOUNTER BECAUSE THEY MUST PROTECT THAT LIE EVEN TO MURDER...AND A SNEAKY PERSON WAS EVEN MORE DANGEROUS... I SEE THE A.B.S OF THE WORLD ALL ROLLED INTO THIS ONE.
I ALSO WILL PROTECT THEIR RIGHTS AS I DO MINE BUT I WILL NEVER OVER RULE THE GOLDEN RULE TO ACCOMPLISH THIS AND GOD KOWS I AM NOT A'LESS THAN' AND SHALL NEVER HELP THEM IN PROMOTING THIS EITHER. (SMILE)
AND MORE INPORTANT ASKING SOMEONE TO JOIN IN A DISCUSSION IS NOT THE SAME AS ASKING A PRESON TO COME INTO THE CONVERSTAION AND FIND BLIND FOLLOWRS TO THAT PEERSON'S CALL(INGGS) OR BE DEMEANED IF THEY CHOICE TO DO THEIR OWN THINKINGS AND BEING THE BEST PERSON ONE CANBE NOW IS IT?!?...AND, HERE IS WHERE PEOPLE WHO ARE ONLY OUT TO FIND BLIND FOLLOWERS WILL NEVER ACCEPT THEIR OWN ACTIONS AND WHERE THE GODS(BY ANY NAME)COME INTO THE PICTURE TO TAKES CENTER STAGE AND GOING TO HELL, ECT. COMES IN...BEEN THEIR WITH THAT KIND OF POISON AND LOVE, RESPECT AND KNOWING I HAVE THE POWERS TO REJECT ABUSE IN ANY FORM OR FASHION IS MY MEDICINE...
LOV YA AND THANKS DOC.
AND, DOC, I JUST HEARD ON THENEWS LOCALLY ABOUT WALK IN CLINICS IN DRUG STORES FOR EYE TEST, EXAMS AND SMALL CHECK UP ARE NOW OPENING IN SELECT DRUG STORES AND WILL BE RUN BY NURSE PRACTIONERS...SOUNDS GREAT, HUH (SMILE)
Thursday, April 10th 2014 at 6:47PM
ROBINSON IRMA
