Just 1 year or more so 1 month - I can't believe it! Is it bad luck or what?
Dear Blackwomenconnect, Hello everyone and thank you to those who read this.
The past year and past month have been filled with tragedies and setbacks.
I'm not a needy person but I am human.
Again, I'm a 30 year old single, no kids, independent, attractive black female with standards. Ive been called different, unique, artsy, deep for a long time and when things are going well I appreciate that but things hit the lowest points. I had a stable job history the whole 2000's up until I decided to leave a job in 2008. I miss the good job that I had for years. When I left, I took a job at an at will company and after just a few months I was dismissed. My doctor wouldn't re-write the note to their satisfaction and it just became so overwhelming but I hung in there went to work everyday knowing they were trying to get rid of me and they did!!
This hasn't even been a month yet its still been 3 weeks!
None of my so called friends and associates are calling or their for me except maybe someone with a not so positive for me motive. My family knows everything but they aren't being there in a way where I need them to for example to get away, enjoy life, etc.
I have reached out on all of those networking sites and had a few writers send support. Others Ignore my messages of the book or just reaching out for comraderie.
I recently went to a yoga class doing all I can again to improve and uplift me and just because I asked this yoga instructor about how did she feel I did in the session, she said "black women lack confidence in their bodies and how they feel people are viewing them and so it gets in the way of their movements", she made it clear she didnt want to work with me anymore. I had trouble focusing due to all on my plate and was very anxious. But I dont understand how someone could be so impatient with someone on a first try? What kind of holistic healing black female is this?????
And I have been exercising doing all I can to stay sane but the loneliness is killing me. I FEAR reaching out LIKE I BEEN DOING because of the negative responses. Or those who want to take advantage, for example sitting downstairs in my building one night on my laptop as he was we were having a deep conversation after basic chat, I keep my guard up. He kept asking questions and I told him I was bi-attractional but never had any real positive experiences with women and he kept trying to get me to sleep with him and I just talking to him because I cannot stand men coming off s*xual to me especially who arent my type! I dont carry myself easily or wear revealing clothes but I just cant stand when they do that.
Yes I have issues but I am a quality woman who is trying to work out the recent things to happen.
Please Blackwomenconnect give your advice, I would and will do the same for you.
I Need to relocate and just ask suggestions and things like that because obviously if things have gone this sour in this state its time to go or something lol. i'm putting a laugh to the pain but its not funny.
Please give all opinions and advice.
I know this is alot but I would do the same for you.
Sincerely,
The past year and past month have been filled with tragedies and setbacks.
I'm not a needy person but I am human.
Again, I'm a 30 year old single, no kids, independent, attractive black female with standards. Ive been called different, unique, artsy, deep for a long time and when things are going well I appreciate that but things hit the lowest points. I had a stable job history the whole 2000's up until I decided to leave a job in 2008. I miss the good job that I had for years. When I left, I took a job at an at will company and after just a few months I was dismissed. My doctor wouldn't re-write the note to their satisfaction and it just became so overwhelming but I hung in there went to work everyday knowing they were trying to get rid of me and they did!!
This hasn't even been a month yet its still been 3 weeks!
None of my so called friends and associates are calling or their for me except maybe someone with a not so positive for me motive. My family knows everything but they aren't being there in a way where I need them to for example to get away, enjoy life, etc.
I have reached out on all of those networking sites and had a few writers send support. Others Ignore my messages of the book or just reaching out for comraderie.
I recently went to a yoga class doing all I can again to improve and uplift me and just because I asked this yoga instructor about how did she feel I did in the session, she said "black women lack confidence in their bodies and how they feel people are viewing them and so it gets in the way of their movements", she made it clear she didnt want to work with me anymore. I had trouble focusing due to all on my plate and was very anxious. But I dont understand how someone could be so impatient with someone on a first try? What kind of holistic healing black female is this?????
And I have been exercising doing all I can to stay sane but the loneliness is killing me. I FEAR reaching out LIKE I BEEN DOING because of the negative responses. Or those who want to take advantage, for example sitting downstairs in my building one night on my laptop as he was we were having a deep conversation after basic chat, I keep my guard up. He kept asking questions and I told him I was bi-attractional but never had any real positive experiences with women and he kept trying to get me to sleep with him and I just talking to him because I cannot stand men coming off s*xual to me especially who arent my type! I dont carry myself easily or wear revealing clothes but I just cant stand when they do that.
Yes I have issues but I am a quality woman who is trying to work out the recent things to happen.
Please Blackwomenconnect give your advice, I would and will do the same for you.
I Need to relocate and just ask suggestions and things like that because obviously if things have gone this sour in this state its time to go or something lol. i'm putting a laugh to the pain but its not funny.
Please give all opinions and advice.
I know this is alot but I would do the same for you.
Sincerely,
Thanks for posting this. It sounds like you are really going through it.
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