Does Life Have Any Meaning? What is our purpose on the Planet?

This is one of these days I am reflecting on A Death in Venice by Thomas Mann and The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock. Right now I am not aging gracefully or happily.

No life has no meaning if you try to pursue it without the wisdom of God.

Psalm 43
1[a] Vindicate me, O God,
and plead my cause against an ungodly nation;
rescue me from deceitful and wicked men.

2 You are God my stronghold.
Why have you rejected me?
Why must I go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?

3 Send forth your light and your truth,
let them guide me;
let them bring me to your holy mountain,
to the place where you dwell.

4 Then will I go to the altar of God,
to God, my joy and my delight.
I will praise you with the harp,
O God, my God.

5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

I can't the only thing that comes is is greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world. And I shall exalt no one, not even myself, higher than my God. :-). You are aging gracefully sister and it's beautiful that you have such high regard for your grandchildren.

Just wanted to post a quick correction. The photo attached to this document is of my grandmother, Eva Palmer who died back in the 1960s. My grandmother was born in 1898. I am only 50 years old and never married or had children. Also when I posted this blog I was really feeling my age. Like many women who have reached my age without marrying and are in a dead end job I am in the midst of a mid-life crisis. Right now God is not smiling upon me.

Thanks Irma for your observations. I am thankful that I have a job, a place to live, food, clothes, for my cat Sylvester and for my brother Stephen. I suppose that I have always battled with depression since I was a teenager. In fact after my mother died in 1998 I was on Celexa then Zyprexa until 2007 when I lost my health insurance. Did not make because these two drugs just take the edge off the depression, they do not cure it. I have elected not to see anymore pyschiatrists, even though now I do have health insurance. I do not want to go back on anti-depressants because of the side effects. One of my talents and skills is writing and that is the way I cope with my feelings. I prefer to feel the full range of my emotions rather than be a pill zombie. I am a loner so I don't bother to talk people about the way I feel. Other than work I tend to live inside my head. I do appreciate these forums because I can get feedback. I'm not so much interested in feedback about religious things I can do to fix myself, moreso I appreciate comments on my written expressions. Once again many thanks. Your post made me think.

Please repeat after me,"I am the most important person there is". Me, I can say this if I add ,"except for my grandchildren".

DeBorah, I will be 67 in two months.And, here are two things, no three things, I believe in totally.
1. The only way to get to heaven(or any place after this life)is to die.
2. I will not know when I am dead(I do not believe).
3. "Man" is mortal and all man will die.I believe that only those who have ever lived will ever die .

We all have our good days and we all have our bad days and it is always best to talk it these things out with others than to keep it all bottled up inside. And, isn't it kind of selfish of you DeBorah to ask God to smile on you when you will not smile at all that he has provided for you like the flowers, being in good physical health,having people who care for you and reach out to you in trust and in understanding and in friendship?

I like you have made good and bad choices.I have lost three children therefore I know how it feels to want children at some times in life or to not have children. If I had chosen to not marry, I would have never married if I had not found exactly what I wanted in a man, I would have gotten a divorce if I found out this was a mistake.

I will never take it upon my self to ask you to do but this one thing for me/for you...Keep talking about what is really bothering you(although some times we our selves do not know this)and I am sure that you will find someone who is much, much worst off than you are.And, until you are satisfied with TODAY look forward to TOMMOROW being better.O.K.? My heart goes out to you because I have been there where you are too, too many times to say just snap out of it because things will be alright...

for example as my husband has been laid off for some times, just knowing that you have a job makes my happy.